Psalms 13:2
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Let me just indulge in a rare post of emotions because this verse simply speaks what I'm feeling. In a rare show of emotions, I must say I am quite overwhelmed. Doesn't help to discover the emo song by Chris Medina and understand the moving story behind the lyrics of his song.
Life's really interesting, if interesting can indeed be the right word to be used to describe what I'm trying to say.
One moment life is smooth sailing and packed with activities, then it takes an about turn and our emotions go all over the place. I enjoy the rare emo moments when I indulge in tear-jerking japanese tragic movies, but the older I get, the harder it is to face up to life when it comes my way and not on my terms.
I'm very independent, hardened and have always been distanced from most of life's bad news. So, I never imagined that I would struggle with endless arrays of thoughts because those important to me are all hurting. The past few days, as I limp about life with my inner man hurting, my physically body exhausted from unrestful sleep, I can't help but chuckle at how life can make an unpredicatable abrupt turn from the routinal days of past to the present days of fighting for hope.
I'm very independent, hardened and have always been distanced from most of life's bad news. So, I never imagined that I would struggle with endless arrays of thoughts because those important to me are all hurting. The past few days, as I limp about life with my inner man hurting, my physically body exhausted from unrestful sleep, I can't help but chuckle at how life can make an unpredicatable abrupt turn from the routinal days of past to the present days of fighting for hope.
I've never had many prophesies in my life and I've never felt disappointed with the very few that were told to me. It did teach me to cherish the rare few that I've inscribe in my heart. Someday, all the seeds that I've spent the best years of my life nurturing will grow up into magnificant giant trees and I will sing the Lord’s praise, and proclaim that He has been good to me.
M.
