I know I'm getting old, but beyond just thinking like an old fart (which I like to believe I'm not), I've also started to see the wisdom of looking at life beyond a season or two.
In the busyness of restarting work in the latter half of 2014, I've gone to countries to do business trips, settled a couple of events, and also found myself up to the neck in personal administrative matters because I chose to buy an apartment and now have to deal with the complicated, tedious affairs of renovations.
Coming daily to work in this new workplace, I barely have any strength to do reflections because the administrative mind goes all over the place as I need to catch up with knowing what to do, I also need to play the role of a boss as I map out the directions and guide in the implementation matters.
The only personal holiday I've taken so far was my annual commitments of the Rangers camp, some 2 weeks ago. The camp was fine, but it was the conversations that I had that brought me to a place where I never imagined I would have gone. As I talked through with individuals from another church on the matters that has riled them, the conversation eventually turned to sour and unhappy points of what is transpiring in church that is also affecting life as a whole.
As I look back at this year, I cannot but sometimes feel
sourish over the lemon-ish moments. A touch of sour, a tinge of bitter happens
when I choose to look at the no-job-news-moments, no-discipline-to-recharge,
idiots-of-workplace, church-annoyance-moments. However, I know myself than to
be sucked in by all the matters that rob me of my joy.
Proverbs 4:23 says, "Keep your heart with all
vigilance, for from it flow the springs of life." It may be a busy year,
it may be a challenging year, it may well be the worst year. But let not the
lemons of life make life sour, because life is worth more living than to live it outside of God's joy.
