Romans 14:7
For none of us lives to himself alone and none of us dies to himself alone.
Yesterday, I had time to myself because my tennis-mate didn't join me for jogging. Alone with my headphones, I did my exercise and allowed myself to be alone to converse with God. Only then am I am free to think, share and let out all.
I know man is not created to be alone, but in this season, I appreciate the time given to me to be alone. God and me, without all the disturbances of people or things. Even as I subsequently spent my time lying on the bed and pouring out my thoughts before I sleep, I know that not all issues will be resolved, everything does not change overnight the moment I wake up. However, God is still there to listen to me and would even entertain my stream-of-consciousness. He does not even need to respond or say anything but just be there and I'm contended.
Many times I realise that there are lots of things and feelings that I cannot share with anyone, but I can with God in my alone time. Well knowing that there are no implications to worry of, no need for any form of standard responses that humans will provide- and annoy me. For this, I love the sovereignty of God who loves so much that He always bothers to be available for me and to listen to a mere speck in this vast universe.
I may always be alone in my thoughts and bear most issues I deal with strictest private confidence. However, alone as I am, there's always God there in the blizzard storms or by the lush green pastures of my life and that is all I ever need.
M.
"He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters" (Psalms 23:2)
