Genesis 28:17
“How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God; this is the gate of heaven.”
Attending 2010's watchnight was a bag of mix emotions. Partly because it felt like a rather aimless program especially when there are always those who go forward and end up babbling instead of giving a testimony. To add to it, one of the RAs did not turn up because he frankly replied that attending was a sheer waste of time. But the conflict of emotions in me was because I was obediently attending watchnight as per my yearly ritual and having the internal struggles of wondering why I was there. Didn't help that just the night before watchnight, I bumped into a few of the living springs young adults and cajoeling them to attend their own watchnight service, as opposed to attending a party outside.
I must say, that when the program is proper, everything is fine. However, when it's a dull evening with people rambling that I wonder if those who gather are losers with no other things to do and if I'm one of those who are just blindly coming because I'm used to the ritual. Afterall, it isn't a compulsary thing unlike keeping the sabbath holy.
I was honestly struggling with being obedient and trying to ensure I was there for the right motive. It only felt good when the clock struck 12 and as I welcomed the new year with a simple worship song and communion, it felt right to have that first few minutes spent on God.
As I partook communion, I told myself that I may someday elect to not attend watchnight and just do something else. However, until that day comes, I'm grateful to have made a conscious choice to be found in God's house in the end of 2010 and the first few moments of 2011.
I thank God for all He has done for me in 2010 and I know that 2011 will be a year of obedience for my life.
What about you? What is God's plan for 2011 for you? I hope you have a clear idea of what to expect.
blessings,
M.
