God's time and what He decrees

Genesis 21:1-2

Now the LORD was gracious to Sarah as he had said, and the LORD did for Sarah what he had promised. Sarah became pregnant and bore a son to Abraham in his old age, at the very time God had promised him.

I did an incredibly stupid thing today that makes me want to hit myself in the head. Arrrgh!!

My office is undergoing a massive restructuring and my role will be diminished. During such corporate upheavals, everyone is seeking out options because they don't want the rug to be pulled under them and find themselves jobless or in a crappy role.

Being very me, I did not bother to do anything until an ex-colleague who transferred to another business sector told me he can help me if I want to explore anything in his sector. Then, a dutch colleague told me on the same day of the available role in that sector and strongly encouraged me to look out for my own career. There was so much advice given from both parties that I was overwhelmed by what they said about me being the right person for the role and I really appreciated their attempts to help me.

So, I spent a considerable amount of time last night doing up a customised solid CV that would make the application for the role effortless. I went through it again and again and when I finished it and emailed it to myself, I felt so good.

Today, I sent it out and was quite pleased with myself for doing something. Felt great that my life had such a clear open door being done for me to explore an opportunity. That is until I got back my CV in the email as a CC recipient because it was sent to the big boss. Horrors of horrors, I realised that I attached an old CV! This would not be able to play up my strengths and only made me look like the wrong candidate to be considered! Gosh, I'm so annoyed at myself for the blunder because I'm a very thorough individual and this was really going to blow any opportunities I had. Added to that was the sheer waste of time last night!! (Grrrhhhh!)

So, now I'm sitting here growling at myself in annoyance. No one to blame but myself. But one thing I do firmly recognise now is this: If the opportunity arises for me to be shortlisted and I do get the role, it's really not because of any credit of mine. I submitted a crappy application that any ordinary person would have written me off. Only if this is God's plan for me will I see it come to pass.

I guess, it's similar to how God will fulfill Abraham's wishes for a son. Only in His time and at His sovereign bidding would things be done. So it shall be for my career.

M.